Bear with me today, my furry friends. I just feel like writing something from the heart...Yes! I opened up my chest and scribbled down some notes here and there...Ha!
I know I have been a little dormant for a long while. With just my mind actively thinking of how I perceived my life to be at this point. And today, sunday, I'm not gonna lie..but this weekend seemed to be by far the longest weekend I ever have for the longest while - and I don't mean by number of days but the feeling that came with it. Can it be the weather?..
Yes, blame everything to mother nature...sure, never look inside you and ask that maybe your life is slowly "churning"...awaiting that big day.
Ohh I like that word "churning", like when making ice cream! ah Happiness!!!...at this point I am not sure where this post is headed...ok, right about now? Ha!
Point taken, the past months, or even years..I knew what I have always wanted. What everybody wanted - to be happy! I find comfort in realizing things (a.k.a. my life) still has hope - 'coz I can still smile and be goofy with my friends, with the people I work with, and even with people I don't know.. Ha! creepy! There, kidding aside, I know deep down, life's road will have to turn somewhere. And it is! Not too fast though but slowly getting there..
Ok! stop typing in jargons! I am not. First of all, I don't even remember what the hell that word means. Ha! Before you start thinking that AGAIN, this post is going nowhere...let me ask you this, isn't it true that we both want the same thing? (PAUSE HERE).
With all it's simplicity, being Happy is a complex word. Maybe as a child, it would just mean having ice cream..or even riding your bike the first time..but as an adult, the web of its meaning gets a bit tricky. You start attaching it to things, to people, to events...to the kind of life you perceived and how much you have achieved. Ahh...at one point I even associate it with being alone (even for a few hours). An oasis. Wee hours in the morning. Just typing away. Alone with my thoughts.
Getting serious now. Really? Ahh I wish! I wish I had the gift of being able to perceive life as serious. NOT! Ha! I suppose I take things in stride. I learned to take life as it blows my way. If it doesn't, well tough. All these years, I realized I was trying to deceive life that everything is going perfect according to plan. I don't know whose plan but well, it is going according to plan. But now, I know for a fact that if you only listen to what life is telling you - you will be fine.
Let life takes its course - you're born, you live, then you die. Ha! WAIT! what happens to "being happy" now? Oh I don't know..how did we get to the "life" word anyway?? I am so lost now! Ha! Let me go back and review what I just typed...
Aha! Being happy!...so you see, my furry friends, being happy is such a relative word.. by whose family I don't know. But one thing I am sure though..I had enough of being UNhappy..it's time to remove the "UN".
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